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09 April 2015 @ 10:04 am
A couple of days ago, while working at the coffee shop where I usually stay, one of my favorite former baristas visited. She was already walking out with her, I'm guessing, girlfriend when I saw her. They were holding hands. I thought it was cute. They look happy. So I said hi. And as soon as the former barista saw me, she let go of her partner's hand. Dropped it like a hot potato. And I want to know: Why?

Discrimination exists. I'm not blind, and I haven't been living under the rock since... Well, ever. I know about the LGBT. I wrote about the LGBT. And I know the horrors and the shame they are made to experience by ignorant people. I'm not asking why the former barista acted the way she did. I can guess. What I want to know is why was she made to feel this way?

Why is it taboo to hold the hands of your significant other if you're the same sex?

Why have we made people feel unsafe to display their love? Especially innocent displays like holding hands, or hugging, or leaning one's head on another's shoulder. These are beautiful things. Expressions of feelings, of trust, and of security. Why can heterosexual couples do this and elicit feelings of warmth? And yet when homosexual couples do it, they are disgusting? Who made this so?

I hate the label 'straight.' When someone uses it, it immediately connotes that to not be heterosexual would mean you're not right. That you've done something wrong. There is nothing wrong with loving someone who is the same sex as you. There shouldn't be anything wrong with that. Love is love. And in this world where race, politics, religion, and even fucking utensils can elicit hate crimes, shouldn't we celebrate love in whatever form it comes in?

Love knows no labels.

Love knows no gender.

Love knows no religion, no race, no political affiliation.

Love knows no age. (Although, I'm kind of drawing the line on pedophilia. I accept that there can be real love between an adult and a child. Even romantic love. But when a child is coerced? Or made to believe in 'love' because an adult is being a perverted bastard? Well, that's a completely different thing. If the love is real, the adult would wait for the child to be of age--or to mature enough to know what he or she is getting themselves into.)

But... Love is love.

Let's not make it out to be evil. Let's not make it out to be bad. Let's just... let it be. Let it exist. Let it shower the world with its warmth and joy. So when homosexual couples want to hold hands in public, they wouldn't get more stares than a heterosexual couple would. So when homosexual couples see someone they know while holding hands, neither one would be compelled to let go.

Let love be.
Current Location: starbucks
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: "Counting Stars"
05 April 2015 @ 09:26 pm
i went on a self-imposed internet hiatus during the "holy week." no, not because i was religious. i just wanted to get shit done. except, instead of the internet, i got suckered into joining the family trip to tagaytay. and the less said about that, the better. and then i procrastinated. well, not procrastinated. i stared at the script i was supposed to have finished a week ago, and wrote and rewrote and rewrote and rewrote--and i still haven't finished it.

moment of truth: i'm scared that i won't do the story justice. i requested this story because i saw something in it that was... special. but due to all the edits and requests and limitations, that special something seems to have... disappeared. and now, no matter how many times i rewrite the damn thing, i just don't feel that connection to the story i initially felt when i heard about it, and when i interviewed the person whose story it is. and i want to get that back. because i feel that if i don't, whatever i end up submitting, won't feel real. and then i'd hate myself for ruining this special story. i'd hate myself for volunteering to write this and not delivering a good script.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: intimidatedintimidated
Current Music: "I Google You"
31 March 2015 @ 11:54 am
it's the last day of my promise to complete a month of blogging.

today, we're locking in.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: "So Young"
30 March 2015 @ 09:43 pm
i hate being an adult. i hate that i have to pay taxes while issues of corruption in the government continue to run rampant. i hate that i have no choice in the matter, and yet many policitians continue to choose to steal money from taxpayers. i hate the fact that a high-profile criminal gets a reprieve from jail because his son is graduating. i hate so many things i have no control over. and i hate having to hate these things.

also, i hate the fact that i'm procrastinating with the script i'm supposed to finish. but i barely got any work done yesterday. mostly because friends were visiting, but also because i was so tired from the saturday night research we did--the first part of which was very informative, but the second part felt like voyeurism. and i was scared for the entirety of the second part because i felt like a wrong look or a wrong bump might get me into trouble. thankfully, that didn't happen.

and then, after spending the morning of today doing errands, now i'm just tired.



but i have a script to finish.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: rushedrushed
Current Music: "Roses Are Red"
29 March 2015 @ 11:16 am
spent the day with friends trying to figure out how to play mansions of madness. it was awesome. the spending the day part, not the playing part. so many rules, so many puzzles!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: "Sidekick"
28 March 2015 @ 11:55 pm
had dinner with resource people for our new show, the rich man's daughter. and then partied with them afterwards.

if you know me, you already know what partying consists for me: plopping down somewhere and doing my best not to fall asleep.

i still can't hear properly.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: "Fancy"
27 March 2015 @ 11:09 pm
i didn't leave the house. i just... i rested. i also worked, true, but mostly, i stayed in my room and i took a much needed break from the hustle and the bustle of the past three days.

also, i finally watched the pilot of izombie, and i am so happy veronica mars is back on television. marshmallows, unite!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: pleasedpleased
Current Music: "Reflection"
24 March 2015 @ 09:28 pm
movement in mythos: check. meeting: check. get home early: check.

why am i so tired?
Current Location: home
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: "Buenos Aires"
23 March 2015 @ 03:28 pm
i'm writing this a little early, because... well, because the day has gone bonkers. meetings are being scheduled only to be canceled right after. only i'm not actually sure if they are being cancelled. you get what i'm saying? so now, i'm left hanging if i'm supposed to go somewhere or stay somewhere, or if i can go to a friend's birthday dinner thing.

anyway. the real reason i'm writing this early is glee.

it's finally finished. it aired its finale last week. and i felt nothing. nothing. and i don't know if i'm surprised that i felt nothing, or surprised at my lack of surprise that i felt nothing. glee was my new charmed. that one show i used to love then stuck with because i hate saying goodbyes. (though, that's no longer true because i dropped supernatural, castle, elementary, and so many other shows like the hot messes they've become.) charmed gave me the warm butterflies with its ending. i am one of the very few who was happy with the finale of how i met your mother. i'm still angry that we didn't get more veronica mars after season three.

basically, what i'm saying is, all the shows i stuck with gave me strong emotions. glee did not. the third to last episode gave me more nostalgia than the penultimate episode did, and the penultimate episode was set to six years ago. and i won't even start on the finale.

i feel bad at all the wasted potential glee had.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: "On My Own"
22 March 2015 @ 11:41 pm
henshincon happened. i met five blue and red mask. childhood heroes. i didn't get to talk to them or anything, but i was sharing breathing space with them. i got to say thank you. yeah, the week ended awesomely for me. even if i'm dead tired now.

and, i am loving how much interested people are for mythos. i love it. i hope we don't disappoint people.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: "Sunday Morning"